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At the risk of sounding self-important, there are times when my job feels like I'm staring all the pain, suffering, injustice, and inhumanity in the world straight in the face, alone, and yelling ineffectually as hard as I can at it.

Today was probably the hardest day I've had since residency and I didn't even go in to the hospital.

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